365 days ago yesterday began the most eventful year of my life. I figured it would be, but I had no idea just HOW eventful it would be.
Isn't it interesting just how much can change in just one year? Looking back and remembering is so crazy. This year not only taught me many things about the world, and the people around me, it taught me a lot about myself.
The day I moved in and was truly on my own was surreal. Walking into my apartment for the first time with my parents by my side and a host of boxes in the car gave me butterflies something fierce. This was it. In only a matter of hours, my parents would leave me on my own, and I would begin life as an adult. Was I ready? Could I do this? I guess I would find out soon enough. We had a good day together, organizing my things, trying to enjoy each moment we had together.
Then it was time for my parents to go. It was a bittersweet moment, watching them drive away. Granted, they would be back in just a few days for my class registration, but it still felt kind of scary. After they came on Wednesday, I had no idea when I would see them again.
However, as scary as it was, I was so excited. I was on my own! My life was beginning in earnest! There was no telling what would happen now.
Over the next few months, I grew in so many ways. Before I moved, I was worried that eventually I would stop going to church, because the decision was 100% mine. But I never willingly missed a Sunday! And I really enjoyed my ward. There were some genuinely good people there. It was comforting to know that my faith was strong enough to carry me through independent life, and it made me feel good knowing that I really did have my own testimony, and I wasn't blindly following my parent's beliefs.
I learned that being alone doesn't have to be a lonely experience. I spent a lot of time on my own, since I didn't have too many friends in Thatcher. At first, I was a bit sad about not being as much of a social butterfly, but in time I came to accept that sometimes it's okay to be friends with just yourself. I took so many walks and bike rides in that pretty little town. I loved exploring by myself, and I found so many beautiful places that I never would have, had I stayed home feeling sorry for myself. I think everyone should take advantage of where they live. There's beauty everywhere, if you look hard enough! Take some time to yourself, and enjoy who you are when nobody's around.
Among learning how fabulous I look with purple hair, and how performing arts might not be for me after all, I learned something even more important: give everyone a fair chance when it comes to dating.
Not saying that you should keep dating someone you know is wrong for you, or putting up with unsavory behavior because you don't know that you'll find anyone better, of course. But give people a chance. I dated around a lot in the months before Tanner. I dated people I was not interested in, but I went anyway because people can surprise you sometimes! I went on many a date where I hardly knew the boy, and at the end of the night, I had made myself a friend. Heck, I wasn't really all that interested in Tanner when we went on our first date! But I gave him a chance, and I've never regretted it.
Dating is so much fun! Don't be afraid of asking someone out, or going out with someone you don't know super well. Use your best judgement, of course, and don't go out with someone you're pretty sure could kill you in your sleep. ;^)
Who would have ever thought that on the one year anniversary of my moving out, I would be going on my third month of marriage? I'm so glad I was able to attend EAC. It taught me so much about life, about love, and about who I am. I am so grateful to my Heavenly Father for giving me the opportunities He did, and although I miss Thatcher something fierce, I got a pretty cool keepsake out of the deal, don't you think? ;^)
What a wonderful, stressful, scary, crazy, awesome year it's been. Who knows what will happen in the next year? Only time will tell....